I constantly get the feeling tat i'm bored..in fact, i get it so often tat i've forgotten what is like to be 'normal'..i'm a person who have to be doing something at all times..scary huh? restless? guess so!
so..wat's my latest hobby? i have no idea!
jus the other day, i was talking to an ex on msn...first thing he said was...Sentosa? and i was like ...oh! u going sentosa later?...well..to cut the story short...anway, he commented tat i was really getting old... not hanging out at the beach like a bum anymore...hmm..before wat he said abt me being an old hag at 30...i was really happy being 30! 30 to me is an age when i know wat i want in life... at 30, i no longer feel lonely, even if i'm alone...i feel confident enough to lose my unworthy frens...i can speak my mind...i can go clubbing with my specs! at 30...i no longer feel the need to search for new, exciting frens..i've my old, exciting frens (hehe!), but amazingly, i did made a really good fren recently!
Well, so wat's the deal? so wat if i dun go to the beach at sentosa...at 30, i can afford to fly and hang out at Bali, Kuta beach anytime...can he? at 25?
I found my blog! can't believe tat i'm back...has been at least 2 years since i last wrote..good to be back tho... inspired by rachel's blog...i decided to write again...but maybe not today...cos i need to get going! lunch then work!
Date: 9th March 2005
Time: 2.06am
In an attempt to show how much can happen to a person in short time. I’m penning this…
About 10 years ago…
1. I got into the JC of my choice, finally enjoying the freedom of
not going for lessons!
2. I got to know Joan, Jessie and Rachel who turned out to be my best
frens! Never knew girls can make such great frens!
3. I pierced my 9th ear hole.
4. I went to Denmark and London for the first time, and fell in love
with the places.
5. I can't wait to leave JC and go Uni. already!
About 5 years ago,
1. I stepped into a classroom for the first time, and came out
trying my best not to cry! Wondered why was I there in the first place…sigh!
2. I threw a boy against the wall, and swore never to lose my temper
like that again! At least not at my students!
3. I hid in the toilet and cry for the first time. Just because I really din want to go for lessons in that terrible class!
4. I began to know the joys of teaching! Glad I stick through it!
5. I learnt that lessons in NIE teach the teachers NOTHING! Except to be disciplined enuff to go for lessons on time, which of cos I din not learn at all!
About 3 years ago,
1. I learnt that being a teacher is not jus teaching, you are also an administrator, accountant, planner, coordinator and everything else!
2. I officially became an alcoholic; it was my way of relaxing from stress!
3. I thought I was in love. But I guess not!
4. I had a taste of what it was like to manage a family. Household chores and expenses included.
5. I learnt that frens…you can live without some...and you can’t live without some!
About 2 years ago,
1. I lost my dad to cancer, still miss him so!
2. I was diagnosed with depression…which was totally…DEPRESSING!
3. I went Bali for the first time and fell in love with the place
immediately!
4. I committed a sin…I had overdosed on sleeping pills and alcohol…the worst? Without even realising it! Please forgive me for my foolishness!
5. I had the worse year of my life… trying to cope with everything happening around me!
About 1 year ago,
1. I penned my resignation letter with MOE, decided that enough is enough!
2. I was slapped with tons of debts and no money…and no job!
3. I met Robin Lau…never expect him to become the one man who could bring me happiness that many tried but failed.
4. I am officially off drugs to control my depression and I am coping.
5. I am no longer an alcoholic!
Yesterday,
1. I surfed through the net, looking for the perfect pair of shoes for my wedding.
2. I went flat hunting for my perfect home!
3. I was online chatting with my sister who is staying in Shanghai; and watched my nephew as he puts a cardboard innocently into his mouth like it was a lollipop!
4. I went for lessons as usual at my present workplace…tuition center…yup! I’m still teaching!
5. I realised how much I loved to teach, minus the other nonsense that came along with it in a school!
Tomorrow,
1. I am going flat hunting again…will not stop till I find THE ONE!
2. I hope to find the energy to clear my dad’s flat…it’s so messy I dunno where to start!
3. I will continue my search for my perfect pair of wedding shoes and accessories and last but not least the bubble machine!
4. I have to wake up at 830am to open the door for my cleaning lady…then I’m going back to sleep!
5. I have to mark my worksheets and prepare my lessons for the rest for the week.
1 year later,
1. I will be married to Robin Lau! (Mrs. Lau do sounds funny to me!)
2. I will have my two cats, Hiromi and Kaito with me still…plus a new addition…Roxy the Mini Schnauzer!
3. I will probably be busy trying to divide time between lessons, marking and preparations for lessons!
4. I will have a part time cleaning lady! Yup! I am lazy!
5. I hope to travel to Europe…or at least London!
10 years later,
1. I will be 38 years old!
2. I will be managing a tuition centre that’s well known among the schools in Singapore.
3. I will still be childless…by choice…instead have my pets and my loving husband for company.
so exciting!! me...buying my first home...a big step to the future with rob..a step nearer to our life together!!
Last nite...Rob did the most amazing thing! he proposed! tho not in the most romantic way... (he wrote "marry me?" on a card!!!)...but I'm happy nevertheless...can't believe this...and now i'm too excited to be sleeping..hehe! and the ring...simple and elegant...the way i love...so..now..plans for our wedding...actually in our case..no wedding will be prefered....we've decided to jus get registered without a wedding dinner..maybe a simple lunch or dinner with his parents...i hate weddings and the hassle...it's too much...and also...my parents are not ard anymore..it'll jus make me sad..make my sis sad to have a wedding dinner without them...so the plan is to ROM end next yr and get our own place...go for a honeymoon and live happy ever after!
Lately, I've been thinking about my old vcd collection...and thinking to myself which ones i would like to watch again..."Beach Boys"! you know...the japanese drama with 2 damn gorgeous guys as lead actors??? I must have watched it for like...at least 10 times! I'm sure a lot of you out there who knows which one must be thinking that I'm really lame for liking such a silly show but "Beach Boys" was really something that warmed my heart... I even named my cats after the characters...Hiromi and Kaito..so anyway, I decided to go back to the old flat to look for it..but damn it! couldnt be found! probably lent it to some idiot and never got it back...and it's too late to buy another set cos it's out of circulation!
Anyway...whoever got my set of "Beach Boys" vcds...please please return it to me! I'll be grateful! I just found a website selling it and it'll cost me S$50 excluding shipping! And if you guys there has any...please lend it to me to copy or if you know where I can buy it..let me know!
i'm really heartbroken...and desperate!